umm whoa

www.myspace.com absolutely boggles my mind! I cannot believe how many people are on it! Just today, a girl that I played with when we were in elementary school, added me to her friends list. I haven't seen her in YEARS! It's truly amazing. Anyway, that's not even the crazy part...check this out:

so tonight, while i'm making stormy curtains for her living room (wow, i sound so old and motherly) she decides to have one of those "deep thoughts" conversations. This is not unusual for us, especially in the wee hours of the morning...

So anyway, we start talking about the past and what not...and she gets on the topic of The Boy. Most of you know who I am talking about...he has always been and will forever be The Boy...So Storm asks if I think I will ever see him again and I told her i wasn't really sure. I would love to see him...I have no idea what I would say to him, but I would love to see him....So then we start talking about The Boy and I start feeling that old familiar beat in my heart. I quickly made it go away because, well, I haven't seen him in over 2 years. In fact, tomorrow will be 2 years and 4 months (i only know this because the last time I saw him was stormy's birthday in '04). anyway...she asked if i had found him on myspace. I told her no. I've tried and tried...can't tell you how many times i've tried to look him up with no results. So, we finished our talk and I decided I needed to get some sleep. so I left...

Got here, put on my pjs, laid down, closed my eyes for about 3 seconds...and picked up the computer. Of course, myspace was my first stop. I went to the search engine and put his name in like the times in the past and of course, did not find him. So i messed around on there for a little bit and then something struck me. For some reason it just hit me "look him up by his email address" So, I typed in that old familiar address...and there he was. His profile is incredibly stark, but I'm about 99.9% sure it's him by what info there is. It has to be...

My heart just about jumped out of my chest....

It took me a while, but I built up the courage to send him a message and a friend request. I have no idea if he will respond...or even accept my request...but it's out there...that's all I can do. I'm not chasing him...I just want to talk to him....I still can't believe he's on there...

i am absolutely blown away by this little big thing called myspace...