Fever...

Baby Fever that is....and I've got a serious case of it! No, Biddy is not, let me repeat, NOT pregnant. It's just that for last couple of months I have had this serious yearning to have a baby. I know, weird. I guess this is kind of common for women, but I thought it usually came later in life...not when you're barely 22? I dunno.

All my life I have wanted nothing more than to be a wife and a mother. I always had the most realistic baby dolls and always always jumped at the chance to take care of a real baby. I was 10 when Maya (my oldest sister's oldest child) was born and instantly became a little mommy to her. A strange crazy fact about me: I've never minded changing a baby's diaper. Seriously. Granted there have been times it smelled so bad I wanted to puke, but still, I don't mind.

I became a nanny at the age of 12...i know, crazy. Four kids, two of them barely younger than me, and I was their nanny. And I loved every minute of it. In high school another family hired me to be their nanny for their 5 kids. It was one of those "pick this one up from tennis at country club a and take him to gymnastics. then pick up this child from country club b and take him to tennis at country club a but be sure to get supper and a load of laundry going before you take the little one to gymnastics..." so on and so forth. It was hectic and tiring and overwhelming at times...and I loved every minute of it.

Then, I graduated high school, went to Africa and fell in love with the precious children there, came home, moved into the dorms and the day before thanksgiving that year, Jake was born. Now, we all know how crazy I am about the Jake. Like, seriously...he's the love of my life. Poor child has 4 mothers haha But he's my baby. I call him that and people that don't know me think he's actually my child (more times than not, my daughter...ugh)...I also don't know how many times people have said something about my daughter, in reference to Maya. I'm like "yeah, thanks, I had her when I was TEN!" haha oh well...Anywho, as most of you know I have a HUGE family. Huge is putting it mildly actually. Anyway, we have 9 kids in the 5th generation of our familia and one on the way. Both of my sisters and all of my cousins, except 2, have babies!

So why am I writing about this insane desire to have a child today? I don't really know except that this morning my Mom brought the newest pictures of Morgan and Camri to show me. They are precious (will post later) and just melted my heart.

Sigh...

I want a baby...