biddy is having some issues...
some serious fucking issues....
like i want to snuggle with Friend and cut his fucking head off all at the same time
like when i screamed as i got off the phone with my mother because she wasn't the least bit concerned i was throwing up my toenails...oh wait, that's normal
like how i want to carry around a box of hand grenades and throw them into all the damn minivans that insist on driving 2 fucking miles per hour - moreso than usual
and i want to go crawl into bed with my grandmother and cry on her shoulder, but i feel too guilty to even call her because i owe her so much money
like how i want someone to notice that i am totally NOT myself, but there's no way in hell i'm going to go up to them and say "hello! i'm depressed! i'm feeling like shit and could totally use your support and some kind words!"
and i have no idea what the hell has brought these issues on and it's really NOT cool
and it's not just p.m.s.
and i took my damn medicine
i desperately need some loving arms to hold me and let me cry and tell me that it's ok even though they have no idea what the fuck is wrong with me...because i don't know what the fuck is wrong with me...
Monday, July 23, 2007
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Boy you've been busy on here. I've hardly gotten to my computer today. I'm sorry you are feeling depressed and no one close to you is noticing. That sucks. But it sucks worse to continue feeling this way all alone so reach out to someone who can hold you and let you cry and fall apart if that's what you need to do. You'll need someone there to help pick up the pieces afterward, it's much easier that way - trust me. And if I know grandma's they don't care if/how much money you owe them. Call her & talk to her, she loves you with or without the debt.
*Quick side note: Score! on the photoshop! I have never had it so have no clue about things like readers and such but I'm sure you'll figure it out.
HUGE BIG HUG OVER THE INTERNET...Did you feel it?
Not done...ONE MORE BIG BIG SQUEEZE.
Can you play with the kids? Get one of those cuties and go to the park. Be with someone that has NO issues and will give you unconditional love.
I hope you feel better soon.
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