slowly, i'm healing...in more ways than one

i'm not really here, just pretend you don't see me. pretend someone else is posting this for me. The past few days I have been listening to two songs over and over again. this one...oh...this one...i just had to share it with y'all. i have lived this song. not recently, but i've lived it. and the emotion and simplicity of the video...amazing...

my favorite lines are bolded...i swear they got into my head and wrote this song...

even if you don't like country, you need to watch:

"Stay"
Sugarland

I've been sittin here starin' at the clock on the wall
and I've been layin here prayin'
prayin she won't call
it's just another call from home
you'll get it and be gone and i'll be cryin'

and i'll be beggin you baby, beg you not to leave
but i'll be left here waitin with my heart on my sleeve
oh for the next time we'll be here
seems like a million years and i'll think i'm dying

what do i have to do i have to do
to make you see
she can't love you like me

why don't you stay
i'm down on my knees
i'm so tired of being lonely
don't i give you what you need
when she calls you will go
there is one thing you should know
we don't have to live this way
baby why don't you stay

you keep tellin me baby
there will come a time
when you will leave her arms and forever be in mine
well i don't think that's the truth
and i don't like bein' used
and i'm tired of waitin

it's too much pain to have to bare
to love a man you have to share

why don't you stay
i'm down on my knees
i'm so tired of being lonely
don't i give you what you need
when she calls you will go
there is one thing you should know
we don't have to live this way
baby why don't you stay

i can't take it any longer
oh my will is getting stronger
and i think i know just what i have to do
i can't waste another minute
after all that i've put in it
i've given you my best, why does she get the best of you?

so the next time you find
you wanna leave her bed for mine...

why don't you stay
i'm up off my knees
i'm so tired of being lonely
you can't give me what i need
when she begs you not to go
there is one thing you should know
i don't have to live this way
baby why don't you stay...

p.s. the doc's office called this afternoon. they had a cancellation! my baby-free epidural has now been moved up to the 15th. the 15th! that's like, in a week! it's like, so very close that i am about ready to pee my pants out of excitement. no, i'm not some sicko that enjoys needles in the spine, i'm just sooooo ready for some sort of relief from this hellacious pain. i am SICK of living on hydrocodone!