Fed Up

Yeah...that's me...fed up! This emotional roller coaster I'm on is making me sick and really pissing me off! I swear if I didn't know any better, I'd think I was pregnant. And NO, people, I'm NOT (let me repeat myself: NOT) pregnant. Altough right now I'm kind of wishing I was because at least then I would have something to blame this craziness on and I would just be able to say "oh these crazy hormones" and everyone would smile and nod and understand...

But, that's not the case. damnitt!

I'm going to Ft Worth tomorrow with Trina & her kiddos. I really hope this will do me some good...but I'm really kind of dreading it. For starters, I can't exactly afford to go...but I'm doing it for her because I'm that kind of friend. She needs support and she needs time with the man she's head over heels in love with...and if I don't go, she won't have either of those things. So, I'm going...with my game face on and I'm going to try like hell to not let her happiness depress me anymore than I already am! I am truly happy for her...but jealous at the same time....

Saw my Suggie today...Y'all seriously pray for her. She's having a really rough time. I can't imagine going through what she's been through the past few years....Cathy's birthday is Sunday, Mac & Sug's anniversary is Monday. Cathy would have been 53...Mac & Sug would have been married 56 years...It's NOT going to be a good weekend for her. Maybe I should stay here and keep her busy...

Damn...

I hope y'all know I don't write this blog to get pity or sympathy. I just need a place to vent and as we all know...emotions are so much easier to put in writing...

I'm really going to try and have a happier post next time! I'll also put up the new pictures of Jake we got today...soooooooo cute! I swear that boy is the absolute love of my life...

I'm out...goodnight

oh, and korey, yes dear I know I need to just get over them. but you and i both know that's a lot easier said than done